On the road to success

I read a message the other day saying we should write our troubles in sand and good things in Stone.
This is so true. Many times when I look back and decide to write, it is always negative thoughts and how we need to see the positive side to life.

I still agree on writing like this as thats when I feel like something has gone and I can forget it.
But I realised I hardly write about the good stuff. So I have decided to be a bit egocentric for a moment and write the things I feel I have achieved in less than a year.

I told myself it would take me atleast 6 months to adapt to my new life. It took me eight...but thats not bad.
Im starting to like where I live.
Is it because I have gotten use to this tranquility?

NO....The reason I discovered last night.
Myself and other people get into habits, and maybe do not like to break that cycle often.
When I moved here I was terrified, and many times I didn't even realise it.

I didn't have my routine from before. I would go to work, jump on and off metro's and buses, get my morning coffee, croissant and cigarette while having a laugh with my co worker. Enter work 10 minutes early, switch on my pc, check the emails, facebook and have a skim through the daily mail.
Sometimes if I was too early i'd have a quick game on the computer and then I'd dig into my shift.

Lunch would be based on jumping on the metro to meet friends and my boyfriend for a lunch at one of the many restaurants in the area, Japanese, Chinese, hotdogs, burgers, Italian etc etc
Other days I'd stay in the area and go window shopping (if there was money i'd actually buy myself something) have a quick subway or Macdonalds then head to the office.

After work I'd head towards the station, have a quick cigarette and put some in my mouth before meeting my boyfriend (he doesn't smoke) for our bus ride home together.

Get home, chill, watch some tv, listen to some music, cook, put a wash one, chill, eat, chill and sleep.
Weekends were sacred to chilling and maybe family visits....

NOW..... I spend my days, cooking, cleaning and working as a teacher. MY LIFE HAS CHANGED.....SOUNDS SCARY????

It has been until now. Why?? Because I have gotten into my routine of safety where I do what I need to.
I have my daily chores, but I also have moments to myself.
The ones where I have to walk to work, having my quick cigarette, maybe listening to one or two songs before going to school to pump me into the right mood.

I see many faces and smile to the ones that may know me. If not I live in my soundtrack and just live it as if no one was looking at me.
To me being happy is actually knowing what I will be doing tomorrow, even if we don't stick to it.
I get scared of the unknown....(took me a long time to realise).

So what have I achieved??

Can you believe I have to interrupt this lil blog post as I got guests?? That is one of the signs of things improving...